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[01 Dec 2011|04:28pm] |
Sometimes my own lack of femininity slaps me in the face. I lived most of my childhood with no adult female presence, and by the time I did, the novelty of feminine activities had worn off.
I really wish I had been born a man. I won't deny my inherent feminine qualities--and I'm not placing blame on anything in my life--but a simple change in gender would have made all the difference.
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[14 Aug 2011|10:17pm] |
Sometimes I feel the crushing fear that none of what I've done in the last year was real. And everything will go back to the way it was.
I wish it didn't have to be such a definite line between what was and what can be.
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[23 Jul 2011|02:39pm] |
That sinking feeling you get when you put faith in anything.
That feeling.
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[09 Jul 2011|12:13pm] |
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I feel so fully in my skin and just like myself. To be certain of your soul is the happiest feeling there can be.
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[26 Jun 2011|12:15am] |
I know I'm okay because I'm free inside and if you feel free enough eventually everything will come spilling out of you. To tell the world to stop being so anxious.
I feel what I feel intensely. But we need to know how to come back to freedom, not apathy.
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[09 Feb 2011|02:10pm] |
Seriously, you and I, we paid $170 for this class, so why are you pissing it away? I care, because I don't want to be like you. You're no better than ghetto ass mother fuckers wasting their money on bullshit like brands and rims just because you claim to care. You want the illusion of intelligence with none of the work.
Am I doomed to be a member of society?
Am I doomed to associate with people like you, and keep my mouth shut, and pretend you're as smart as you want to be?
I can't do this. I have options but nothing to create myself. What would I create anyway?
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[20 Dec 2010|03:32pm] |
Fuck you.
I didn't hand this out to anyone.
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[30 Oct 2010|04:38pm] |
Succumb to the line
The finishing time
The long distance runner
Has stopped on the corner
But I won't give up
Although I've stopped too
Before the end of me and you
The patchwork explains
The land is unchanged
Interpret the rooms
My tears in the typing pool
The letters are sighing
The ink is still drying
I told you the truth
And now I sigh too
The page turns on me and you
Across that white plain
The land is unchanged
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[05 Jul 2010|12:28pm] |
Suck it!
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[19 Apr 2010|05:21pm] |
I
fought the angels here today.
Hope
my defeat will end this play.
Everybody knows that
I only have myself to blame.
And everybody knows that
softly, softly wins the game.
Trust,
I'll try to learn again.
My words
are seldom for a friend.
Knew
at the time that they came out.
Wish
I could have them disallowed.
Everybody knows that
we say things we do not mean.
Everybody knows that
we say things that are unclean.
Trust,
I'll try to learn again.
My words
are seldom for a friend.
Run
Conversations in my head.
Write
my own script to dish the dread.
And if I speak out loud
I will have to change the rules
for speaking's out of bounds
if it's practiced by a fool.
Trust,
I'll try to learn again.
My words
are seldom for a friend.
So lend me
an ear to lean upon
to speak to
and learn my speaking from.
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[30 Mar 2010|09:04pm] |
I need help.
Or revenge.
I'm pathetic.
( Read more... )
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[29 Mar 2010|06:14pm] |
Jay and I were playing two-person apples to apples last night. This actually happened.
Sorry if I stretched the page. It is too awesome to keep under a cut!
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[08 Feb 2010|11:05pm] |
I must have written this when I was 14. I read it now and it's really not that bad!
( Spider Puppeteer )
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[20 Dec 2009|01:09am] |
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I like box wine.
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[11 Dec 2009|02:32pm] |
My personal demons can scheme with professional care.
Oh, god, they're after me.
If I could shock them up, just for a second, I swear
I could stop this catastrophe.
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| Reversal |
[24 Feb 2009|08:33pm] |
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You were working as a waitress in a cocktail bar
When I met you.
I picked you out, I shook you up, and turned you around,
Turned you into someone new.
Now five years later on you've got the world at your feet.
Success has been so easy for you
But don't forget it's me who put you where you are now
And I can put you back down too.
Don't you want me, baby?
Don't you want me, oh?
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| Hey, I'm still alive. |
[24 Oct 2008|03:50pm] |
Weird right? Well I drive now. And I make money by doing ridiculous tasks.
Anyways just letting you guys know I'm still here if you wanna have a 'net powwow. Though it might be a few days before I check anything again.
Not so big on the updating thing or the internet thing anymore....
Yeah so peace.
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[27 Aug 2008|03:56pm] |
I had a dream last night about a black cat whose tail was extremely long but broken off and writhing behind it. I was eating some really good ginger cake and the cat was really hungry so I gave it some cake. After that it followed me around happily until I went to the bathroom and it tried to eat my face.
Weird dream!
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